Done AND Done

Found possible 'dream' job. Check. Application in. Check. Waiting to hear back. Check. God I hate this part. I have no patience, never have. It's a defiant only child syndrome. I want what I want when I want it. Waiting, especially for something you want always seems to create a pit in the back of your throat. Even when you're more than 100% sure that something good will come, you still have doubt. It's a hard thing to fight sometimes. You trudge through, stand proud with your determination, no matter how many try to bring you down and hope for the best outcome. Ugh... I need to get my mind off it.

Happy Belated Love Day

For some reason this year, leading up to valentines day, I started to brew a mild hatred for it. Since being 'single' for the last few years, I typically brushed it off as just another day or was too tired from working to even care. But this year. This year became different. I relate it to pressure from some friends and family as to why I have chosen not to date much and tons of people I know 'finding' someone. One friend went as far as sending me text / calling on almost a daily basis of how this guy or that guy wanted to hang out with her. Great! I'm happy for you. Really I am. I want all my friends to be happy. But when not in the mood, or feeling down and out, sometimes you just don't want to hear about it.

Even with the disliking of the annual event this year, I somehow felt the need to design valentines day post cards; which I actually sent out. I know right, way to go me! Of course, like the often nerdy designer I am, they are not just any valentines. No, they are special, with a meaning and concept behind the entire design. It's my 'interpretation of loving someone (romantically, friend and / or family) from afar, where the ultimate decision is based on whether you desire to hold onto that particular relationship or let it slowly drift away'. The women holding on is strong and secure. There is no struggle to keep something if you want it, thus being just as easy to hang on as it is to let go. I used that as the basis of who I chose to send them to. If someone received one, it kind of means I'm choosing to hang on.

When the 'big' day actually arrived, I could have cared less. Brilliant! I met up with GS to start updating my website, talked twice with KOD (which I have to admit left me feeling a bit eh) and then had an unexpected night out with the ladies thanks to RC. All in all, a perfect carefree day with quality people. So, happy belated love day! It wasn't too bad after all.

Dear GB,

This one's dedicated to you. I know I've been bad, and the sight of a baby elephant in the womb is not your favorite thing to look at. So.... out of respect and love for you checking in, which I greatly appreciate, I'm giving you something new to read... for now.

In the last few days I've been thinking, heavily, about where and what I want to happen this year. Like months past, as many know, I have put tight deadlines on things I decide must happen, no matter how 'unrealistic' they may be to everyone else. Lucky for me, I seem to be able to accomplish the 'impossible'. So you ask, "What's the next big thing B"? Well, since I'm trying to be in a generous mood, I'll let you in on it. It involves a city far to the east (Burlington, VT), graphic design for a rad snowboarding company (yes, I want to be a snow bunny) and with a pending date to happen by the end of March, at the latest. Can and will this happen? Possibly. But I believe in the universe, and want it bad enough, so let's cross our fingers and send white light. Positive thinking gets you everywhere...

Womb Me

While researching online for some elephant inspiration for a new design thought, I stumbled upon the photo above. I was drawn to it like a moth to a flame. It has an eeriness that I cannot put my finger on, yet has a soothing and calming effect on me. How can such a massive and strong animal appear to be floating in a state of bliss? Only in the womb I say. Or rather, a picture is worth a thousand words. It is beautiful and a place I want to be - happy, like everyone pretends to be...

7up and Saltines

Alas, for the last three weeks I have been sick. I was technically on the mend and then decided to push myself and stress about life and such far too much, which resulted in me getting even sicker. It blows and has been no fun at all. Sitting at home, on my bed, I have tried to veg out and relax, as I know that is what my body needs, but it is hard, and irritating, and just down right frustrating. I want to do things. I want to get out. Heck, I even want the energy to work out again as I was doing so well up until this awful invader of sickness entered my life. But no, I have to sit, be patient and chill the fuck out. 7up and saltines have been my main diet for a week straight, with some mac n' cheese, pot stickers, rice with a little chicken, tea, some coffee (yes, I am an addict) and an apple with almond butter thrown in. Whoohoo, sounds lovely, doesn't it?

On the bright side of things, I officially have designed my first valentine's day post cards and will hopefully be sending them off within the next few days. When I look at them, I question the reason why I felt a need to design them and send them off in the first place. I am not particularly excited for this holiday this year and probably will not even celebrate. Heck, some might say I am anti love. They are probably right. But regardless, I am going through the motions of grade school, in a more selective process, and participating in what is now a yearly tradition of candy hearts, love and all things mushy and borderline romantic. So for anyone who receives one... I... um... love you.... in some way or another.

I Want To Be A Part Of This....

WK12 seeks Year 6 from wktwelve on Vimeo.


Yes, like many others, I dream of being a part of the WK team, in any way, shape or form. Last week I sent off my attempt of a new mini portfolio/application in hopes of getting into WK12 year 6. Actually, I re-designed it specifically for that reason alone. But on a side note, it was nice to see I had some quality new pieces. In fact, they were all new pieces. It felt good not having to go back and use older work, no matter how much I still love it. I am hopeful of what the outcome will be. I want this. I need this. I crave this. An environment that encourages and fosters rad design, with interesting, eclectic individuals, hmm, I might just wet myself. Seriously, it sounds like a wonderful dream that I would never want to wake up from and can only hope I get to live it one day...

Yes We Can!

YES WE CAN!

Bush is FINALLY out of office, and the consensus seems to be rejoicing from all regions, happily welcoming President Barack Obama. Who would have thought this day would come? It seems surreal, like a movie. And it is not just the fact that Obama is the first 'black' president. No, it steams much deeper than that. He understands a generation that wants change, that cares about our future, the environment and the well being of every human being. 1.5 million people showed up in Washington D.C. on January 20, 2009 to witness history being made. Thank the universe that we finally have a leader that we can be proud of!!!