While researching online for some elephant inspiration for a new design thought, I stumbled upon the photo above. I was drawn to it like a moth to a flame. It has an eeriness that I cannot put my finger on, yet has a soothing and calming effect on me. How can such a massive and strong animal appear to be floating in a state of bliss? Only in the womb I say. Or rather, a picture is worth a thousand words. It is beautiful and a place I want to be - happy, like everyone pretends to be...
Alas, for the last three weeks I have been sick. I was technically on the mend and then decided to push myself and stress about life and such far too much, which resulted in me getting even sicker. It blows and has been no fun at all. Sitting at home, on my bed, I have tried to veg out and relax, as I know that is what my body needs, but it is hard, and irritating, and just down right frustrating. I want to do things. I want to get out. Heck, I even want the energy to work out again as I was doing so well up until this awful invader of sickness entered my life. But no, I have to sit, be patient and chill the fuck out. 7up and saltines have been my main diet for a week straight, with some mac n' cheese, pot stickers, rice with a little chicken, tea, some coffee (yes, I am an addict) and an apple with almond butter thrown in. Whoohoo, sounds lovely, doesn't it?
On the bright side of things, I officially have designed my first valentine's day post cards and will hopefully be sending them off within the next few days. When I look at them, I question the reason why I felt a need to design them and send them off in the first place. I am not particularly excited for this holiday this year and probably will not even celebrate. Heck, some might say I am anti love. They are probably right. But regardless, I am going through the motions of grade school, in a more selective process, and participating in what is now a yearly tradition of candy hearts, love and all things mushy and borderline romantic. So for anyone who receives one... I... um... love you.... in some way or another.
Yes, like many others, I dream of being a part of the WK team, in any way, shape or form. Last week I sent off my attempt of a new mini portfolio/application in hopes of getting into WK12 year 6. Actually, I re-designed it specifically for that reason alone. But on a side note, it was nice to see I had some quality new pieces. In fact, they were all new pieces. It felt good not having to go back and use older work, no matter how much I still love it. I am hopeful of what the outcome will be. I want this. I need this. I crave this. An environment that encourages and fosters rad design, with interesting, eclectic individuals, hmm, I might just wet myself. Seriously, it sounds like a wonderful dream that I would never want to wake up from and can only hope I get to live it one day...
