Spring Cleaning And More Weirdos

This spring, like many, I have decided to do a little spring cleaning. For me, it's not necessarily in the household, going through my things and cleaning out, kind of cleaning. This year, it's focused on my life and preparing for goodness to come in the coming months, and most importantly, clearing out people that no longer apply to my life.

As much as I know some people need to go (particularly one person), it's not easy. It's not easy because they are on a quick descent to killing themselves and I have made the personal decision to not stand by and watch. Things might have been different if they weren't in denial, but they are, and show signs that they don't want to change their behavior. And for that reason alone, I can't be there to support them. I was appalled today when on fb (yeah, I know what you're thinking) I saw how they posted about how they are once again drinking. Mind you, only a few weeks ago they woke up in the hospital strapped to a bed and almost died from drinking too much. I also saw how they're dating, a lot, and having these random men around their 3 1/2 year old daughter. It's irritating and frustrating and a prime example of why you shouldn't bring a child into this world until you are stable enough, emotionally and financially, and with a partner. Like puppies, babies grow up, and won't always be there 'to love you'.

Anyways, that brings me to a new topic: weirdos and creepers and terrible pick up lines. As some know, I have been attracting this kind of attention for the last few weeks. Last night, while at the mall with NJ, some dude/creeper walks out towards us, looks me up and down, and says "You're my favorite, I choose you". Come on. Really? I think I'm going to lock myself indoors for a while and hide out. And yes, I'm totally serious. What's the point? They're everywhere nowadays and it doesn't seem like you can go out without running into at least one.

Airport Boycott...

.... Well, that is until it's my turn again. Yes, today, after picking up not one, but two people at the airport at different times, and having a total of 3 airport trips in 4 days, I have decided that I will not be returning until I am the one getting on an airplane. Don't get me wrong, I have no qualms about helping people out when it comes to drop offs/pick-ups. But the 2nd trip ended up being by far one of my worst experiences at an airport and it was 11:45 PM!!!!! Yes, there were 2 long lines to even pick someone up and then after I pulled to the side to pick up the person, who was not out front just yet, and waited. I was at the end of the arrival area and there was still tones of room around me. Then, this bitchy airport traffic women comes up and yells at me that I can't stay there, even for another minute. I said ok. I was in the middle of calling the person who I was picking up to see if they were out yet and get ready to pull away. Then she moves in front of my car, because get this, I was not pulling out fast enough. Heavens forbid there were cars passing me at a constant rate so I could not pull out, and she was in front of me. So yeah, there was no way I could get out. Then she starts writing me a ticket because I'm 'not going'. So being in a piss ass mood, I yell at her, through my rolled up window, "I'm going!" And yes, she heard me. She yells back how there's a no cell phone policy, which didn't make any sense since everyone in their cars and on the side walk were talking on their phones. Anyways, thank god for a clearing and I was able to pull away. She stopped writing the ticket.... cross your fingers she didn't finish it after I left.

After my bicker with the rude airport traffic bitch, and yeah, I was being a bitch too, I had to circle another 3 times before the person I was picking up got outside. Yeah, it was that busy at almost midnight on a Wednesday. Who knew. At least you and I both now know that that is a terrible time to be at the PDX airport. Boo!

Anyways, I needed to vent. I'm tired of people being dumb and rude. I'm tired of them pissing me off so much. Errrr. I need to chill the fuck out right now. Seriously, no more! And I definitely won't be making any more trips to the airport. Well, unless I get a decent size check soon.... then I'm out of here for who knows how long!

Oh, and deepest apologizes for my rants lately. I promise I will write nicer things in the coming days. And maybe even post some stellar photographs of new design work. Yeah, I know, I bet you're excited for that.

Crap 9-5 Jobby Job, Bad Economy, NYC Too Expensive... FUCK YOU!

Alright, I've had enough of people giving me shit about 'not having a crap 9-5 jobby job' or 'how it must be so hard to freelance in this bad economy' or 'you're thinking of moving to NYC, that's really expensive, maybe you should think about Jersey or someplace cheaper'. FUCK YOU! You people don't think that I don't know that? Duh, ass holes, of course I do. But the difference between me and them is that I look on the brighter side. That I don't dwell on the bullshit. The economy doesn't have to be bad. Sometimes a crap 9-5 jobby job isn't the answer. And, yes, NYC is expensive. But obviously millions of people have done it, are currently doing it, and will do it for a very very long time. So why be debbie downers? Please, just stop, listen, and try to understand my perspective. In fact, I can guarentee that pretty much anyone that says shit like that isn't happy with their life or the way it has turned out thus far. As for those who are avid supporters and understanders. THANK YOU! I appreaciate it. *sigh* Now I feel better.